Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Seperation Anxiety

Every minute that I am away from you, all I keep thinking is what are you doing. I keep wondering if you are eating properly and sleeping comfortably. Do you miss me when I am not around and wait for me to get back home? What new games do you play and what new actions have you learnt? Will I miss the first time you will crawl or you walk. I feel so sad that I am not around and hope that someday you will understand why I am gone for soo long…

My little boy recognizes the fact that mommy leaves him and goes off some place in the day... the moment I get back he cries out in happiness, wants me to pick him and hug him...he gets a little cranky and annoyed when I get late in the evenings.. I believe he misses me and this gets really tough for me. His joy on seeing me in the evening is immense. The minute I step in, there is instant recognition on his face, and he pulls out his hands for me to pick him up. His happiness and smile is so innocent and so full of joy at seeing me that it melts my heart beyond words.


The hours that I am away from him, are so difficult to pass, I keep checking out his photo’s and little video recordings in my cell. I talk about him like a proud mom discussing his activities and little achievements. When I think of the little things he does, I smile inherently and miss him all the more.


When I am not around, he hardly sleeps a wink. But in my arms he sleeps snuggly and comfortably. When I sing to him, he smiles sweetly at me and gets a little drowsy. I hold him tight and kiss him on his head; he sleeps content with a smile on his face.


This separation is tough for both of us, but that’s a part of growing up and eventually I believe he will understand all. I love you baby!

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